the buddy system

i think that teamwork is different than love, because teamwork is more about achieving goals and getting somewhere and love... well, love is all about the journey, man. this is probably why i don't like to refer to dillie as my partner. (actually i am not too crazy about referring to him as my lover either, but i think that could have more to do with my aversion to the seventies)

i like the idea of cooperation, of two heads being better than one, of democracy and sharing the load. teamwork is so good most of the time, because when we work together we can get so much further than we could go individually. i love that satisfying feeling of 'oh yeah, we did it!' i don't really care where the satisfaction comes from, whether it is mundane like making lunch or pushing a car out of a drift or transcendent like buying this house or teaching sammo to read. sometimes i think that it is the closest i can come to really perfectly sharing an emotion with others. it is awesome and i just love it so much.

but i guess that the darkside of this setup is that sometimes it just seems that you have farther to fall when he/she/you/i fuck up and drop the ball. hey we're only human and it was bound to happen, right? i feel a bit bruised tonight, and i am feeling the shadow of that old lonesome ache, but i am still glad to be right here.